When the storm calms from an intense period of madness, the sky can be seen clearly again.
I wonder if I’ve ever seen the sky properly until this moment.
There’s something about the clarity inside me and every thought makes perfect sense.
The world can tear at us with such great intensity, time and time again.
But all it takes is one second, the one where you realise what you’ve learnt… and only then can you really appreciate every damn experience.
I spend hours dwelling on things and more hours appreciating what I have but I have never quite appreciated it all this much.
In the last year I have learnt so SO much and feel completely different within myself.
The things I know now:
1. It’s ok to feel crazy sometimes.
Sometimes you want to sleep forever, reverse that mistake or hear someone speak to you that feels exactly as you do. Everyone is crazy in their own ways. That’s the best part about meeting people and colliding with them in all the right ways.
2. Happiness is within YOUR control.
You can make mountains out of mole hills, refrain from seeking advice, see the worst in people, make the same poor decision time and time again, sit in your hole of self pity, lack self respect or be drawn to terrible situations. You can be blinded by love, hurt by the world, sick with worry and lacking all motivation and contentment. It happens. So clear the air around you, chuck it all away. You don’t need crap in your life so learn everyday and take what you’ve learnt seriously so you can control your own happiness.
3. Love yourself, no matter what.
This is the one thing I have struggled with most of all. It is only now that I have really started to deliver and take what I have learnt about loving myself. Loving yourself is respecting yourself, trying, choosing what is best for you, being selfish sometimes, not caving and giving the world something it wants from you that you don’t want to give. LOVE YOURSELF. How can anyone else possibly love you if you can’t love yourself. Don’t listen to what people say about you. Sure you may have fucked up things a couple of times (or a couple of hundred) but give yourself a bloody break. Stop and look at where you are and where you are going. As long as you’re not going backwards, that’s something. So appreciate yourself and your ability to deal with things and move forward. Appreciate others and the way that they feel about you. Loving yourself gives you the world at your feet and all the freedom and motivation that you can ever dream of.
Don’t waste time and energy - you are beautiful, ACCEPT THAT NOW before it’s too late.
4. Appreciation is the key.
How can we live and love and experience if we can’t appreciate. Appreciation is freedom. It’s beauty, love, wholesomeness, happiness, motivation, future, past, present. Appreciating your life opens up a world of opportunity and gives you a perfect sense of fulfilment…everyday!
***More to come…***
Reading something beautiful makes my day :)
…and one day someone will come along whom you can create your own world with; a sacred place where only you and he can dwell together :)
If you’re not where you want to be right now, just pretend.
Close your eyes, listen to the world and imagine the place your heart seeks. Keep it close and make a plan, create a brainstorm and a pathway for yourself so you can get to that place.
Don’t worry about time..
Don’t stress about money..
Don’t picture who will be there with you…
Just think about YOU.
Anything is possible.
When I was 4 or 5 I had an A4 notebook. It had teddies all over it and I longed to write on it’s pages. I spend hours dictating my stories to my father who would patiently document them for me.
Today I have decided that soon I will start a book. I haven’t decided what I want to write.. I am overwhelmed with passions and projects constantly. Tomorrow I will sit and brainstorm and in a week I think I’ll begin.
Emotions, truth, loveliness, nutrition.
It’s all been done before.
I want to write to bring smiles and fresh information.
I hope I can start something that will reach someone, a stranger out there somewhere.
Life is good.
There’s nothing like a quick road trip with friends to get out of the city. Sometimes I feel like a city is limiting, there is only so much to be done before I have to move on. I spend days dreaming of the world and wishing I could cross oceans weekly to get a taste of all of it’s fruits and delights. Alas, I am grounded here for now but am discovering how lucky I am to dwell in one place for a long time.
If you’re feeling like you need a sea change, remember that there are plenty close to home. Western Australia alone has so much land to see and so much beauty to warm the heart. I can’t wait to see more. There are moments when we glance at our facebook updates - people marrying, having kids, new jobs and new lives. We all have our time for everything so don’t worry if the current seems like it’s going a different direction to the way that you’re swimming.
Treat everyday as a new experience, even if it feels like history is repeating. You won’t be here forever or with the same people forever. Time will aways be precious so as long as you’re doing something with it - relaxing, travelling, writing, loving… it is well spent.
A professor stood before his philosophy class and had some items in front of him. When the class began, he wordlessly picked up a very large and empty mayonnaise jar and proceeded to fill it with golf balls. He then asked the students if the jar was full. They agreed that it was.
The professor then picked up a box of pebbles and poured them into the jar. He shook the jar lightly. The pebbles roll
ed into the open areas between the golf balls. He then asked the students again if the jar was full. They agreed it was.
The professor next picked up a box of sand and poured it into the jar. Of course, the sand filled up everything else. He asked once more if the jar was full.. The students responded with a unanimous ‘yes.’
The professor then produced two Beers from under the table and poured the entire contents into the jar effectively filling the empty space between the sand.The students laughed..
‘Now,’ said the professor as the laughter subsided, ‘I want you to recognize that this jar represents your life. The golf balls are the important things—-your family, your children, your health, your friends and your favorite passions—-and if everything else was lost and only they remained, your life would still be full. The pebbles are the other things that matter like your job, your house and your car.. The sand is everything else—-the small stuff.
‘If you put the sand into the jar first,’ he continued, ‘there is no room for the pebbles or the golf balls. The same goes for life.
If you spend all your time and energy on the small stuff you will never have room for the things that are important to you.
Pay attention to the things that are critical to your happiness.
Spend time with your children. Spend time with your parents. Visit with grandparents. Take your spouse out to dinner. Play another 18. There will always be time to clean the house and mow the lawn.
Take care of the golf balls first—-the things that really matter. Set your priorities. The rest is just sand.
One of the students raised her hand and inquired what the Beer represented. The professor smiled and said, ‘I’m glad you asked.’ The Beer just shows you that no matter how full your life may seem, there’s always room for a couple of Beers with a friend.
Is the intelligent world a trap that eventually catches itself when it’s set up against instinct? Although intelligence allows us to live longer and more productive lives, do some of us choose to do more at the expense of our bodies? Do we forget those important subconscious physiological functions that keep us living or the value of free time in which we use not to hunt or gather but to indulge more than ever before? Man is a self conscious and self-controlling organism able to make choices, to work as part of a system and to gain intelligence, whilst remaining self-aware. Are we more aware of the safety net that is medicine (and in turn, seemingly endless opportunities to live longer) than the fundamental requirements for natural and instinctual long life?
Alan Watts wrote an essay that asks a fundamental question: How does man control the part of himself that does the controlling? There seems to be a point beyond self-control that is a point of paralysis, detrimental to one’s own wellbeing. We live in societies that set us up to give our bodies more lifestyle related diseases than we are yet to find cure. And this causes stress – stress to ourselves and our bodies, those around us and the systems that we have become part of. If we spent more time listening to our bodies, really listening, I think we’d be alright. Instead we listen to the weather man, Oprah, that ad on the radio that insists that the newest McDonalds burger is an organismic taste sensation, the people that criticize us and put us down and the things that the rest of the world are doing.
Have we ever been in a state of less control? Band-aide after band-aide, one over the other, hiding what is underneath. We are blind to the real problems – global obesity for fucks sake! Not knowing what the hell E621 means on the back of our instant noodle packet (yeh, the ones that we hardly read yet put straight into our bodies without questioning its origin). Who cares about over population, limited resources, world hunger, animal cruelty or one third of the population contracting diabetes in their lifetime? Our priorities are what trap us, yet our intelligence should allow us so much more if used to our advantage.
I am writing this because I see people everyday suffering from cancer…..from diabetes….anorexia….cachexia….schizophrenia…diverticulitis…IBS…obesity. In a vulnerable state I have found that people are either most honest with themselves or least. I get the 140kg lady that says “well I don’t know why I put on so much weight when I hardly eat sweets” and the fifo worker that says “well none of my other mates that smoke have lung cancer so I guess I’m unlucky”. But among them I have the old man that says “well I guess I only really ate vegetables once a week” and the middle aged woman that says “love, I know I’m here because I used to drink too much”. Those are the ones with the best advice; advice that the rest of the world should take as a punch in the nose and really do something about!
Let your body rest.
Go for that walk around the block.
Ignore the McDonalds sign.
Get that rash on your arm checked out.
Ditch the friends that put you down.
Laugh and smile.
Find more practical indulgences.
Still drink your wine, eat your cheese and nap instead of gyming.
Cigarettes will kill you.
Alcohol in moderation.
Life in excess.
Life has no meaning other than the meaning we create…
There are these times of overwhelming clarity where the world becomes transparent…. wondrous… luminous. Although I have always had these rushes of intense mental pleasure, the frequency of such episodes seems to be heightening the more I understand who I am and the direction I have taken in life. I am completely fulfilled and will continue to be satisfied by the fruits life present for me to feed on. I am wonder struck. I am self sufficient. This feeling of sustainable enlightenment feeds my soul and propels me along in this beautiful world. I strive so high to go places, to set myself up for the future that I am shocked by things as they come at me. I am forever experiencing new feelings of wonder and disbelief that life can be this damn amazing. It’s as if these reoccurring states of cosmic consciousness reward me with insight to understand the now and feel completely at one with the world.
I am the living, breathing being who I choose to be. Although I’m not perfect I trust that I will continue to grow and expand my mind until the end of my days. I would be nothing without the gentle souls that choose to spend their time with me and the natural world that fills me with unbearable love and passion for life and living in each moment.
These reoccurring states of cosmic consciousness are ecstasy.
Life is beautiful.
This is brilliant. I’m pretty sure Ricky is the man.